Roller Coaster Ride
When I decided to join our corporate fast, I really wanted to take a different approach as it pertains to my personal reason for fasting. In the past I have fasted for clarity, answers, and even direction. However, this time I asked myself what am I struggling with the most in this season of my life?
For me personally everything in my life recently has been like a roller coaster ride and nothing has been in my control lately. From health to finances and everything in between my recent journeys have been challenging. This is coming from a person who operates best when in control so you can understand this has been a state of crisis for me to say the least. It is difficult for me to let go and to really let God take the wheel during my personal storms in life but this is the time when I know it is most important to do so.
I decided to fast to develop a humbling, intentional, and more intimate relationship with God. Developing a deeper relationship with God is an area in which I need growth the most. It’s hard for me to focus on trust when I feel like I’m losing all sense of normalcy in my life. My first reaction is to just try to fix everything myself and then spend time thanking God instead of depending on God to fix it and thanking him throughout the process.
I want to really trust God in all that I do and not just say it because it sounds good or it is the right thing to say as a Celebrate Recovery Pastor and seminary student. So, as I develop a deeper relationship with God, I plan to use my time fasting to intentionally encounter the true fulfilling feeling of release and peace of mind when I give God complete control.
If you are fasting for reasons like mine (roller coaster storms of chaos and confusion), I would like to share something with you. The feeling of release and peace of mind when we let go and we really stop trying to always be in control, is far more fulfilling than any feeling of worry, fear, shame, or doubt. Though we may not agree with every bump that we encounter or every unfair hill we must climb, with trusting God as the center and source of our lives, these trials and tribulations will build the foundation that is necessary to develop within us Godly character, purpose, and guide us along the path that God has created for our lives.
The true believer’s faith will be made sure by the trials we experience so that we can rest in the knowledge that God’s love for us is real and will last forever.
1 Peter 1:6-7: "In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which perishes, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ."
Harmony Celebrate Recovery Pastor